Some of us have gone through events in our lives that have made us afraid to trust.
Some of us have been crushed by circumstances–financial or personal. Some of us have experienced the loss or death or injury of a loved one, and it has knocked us down. And some of us have been betrayed by someone we least expected, shooting our anger and vengeance toward them.
Maybe our circumstance has knocked us to our knees, but maybe it has had a different effect: We won’t fall on our knees at all.
We are angry. We are afraid to trust.
We hang to the sidewalk of what used to be and will not move away from it to take a step forward, a step toward change. We don’t think we can handle it–and worse, we don’t want to try.
We wonder why God did this to us! We are angry and bitter. Maybe we shut ourselves away, or maybe we meet others attempts to help us with bursts of questioning, “What do you know about it anyway? You’re fine, not like me at all!”
BUT that is probably not true, though we may be surprised to discover it. Because at a given time in our lives, all of us will go through things we don’t want to go through. We will suffer from one thing or another. Every one of us. How do we get through it in one piece?
Oddly, what we don’t think we can do, is the thing we need to do. TRUST in God. And that means trust in ourselves, because God lives within us. And then, TRUST in others who may be serving as Christ among us. We are not alone–never alone–not even when we close ourselves off.
The answer is to open our hearts to God. And open our physical door to let others in; those who may indeed have had a similar experience, and who may have been called by God to help us. Called to help you and me individually, where we are, and as we are, because God loves us that much.
God does not give us our life without His path to walk upon. Let Him work on our fear and anger by accepting His mercy through His mystical body–the union of all Christians into a spiritual body with Jesus Christ as their head.
God wants to help. Most people want to help. Why don’t we let them?
Translating a World on the Edge 
I do trust God, but have a hard time turning to people. Last weekend I had me a real pity party, and I was the only one invited 😦 On Friday night I went into my room and shut the door and sat in the dark. And cried and cried. For a minute there, I even thought Christ had forsaken me. I thought about calling a flesh and blood person, but since I was the only soul invited to the party, I suffered alone. I’m better now that the pity party is over. Back to normal – whatever that means.
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Debra, I’ve been in New Orleans without my computer, but read your comment on my phone and have been thinking about you. There are times when I think we have to reach out to others. Loving people will reach back. And I also think that every now and then, everyone deserves a ‘pity party.’ Some I’ve had have done me lots of good. ❤
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